We never really got along and I've never gotten in more angry or violent fights with anyone else in the world. I have never been meaner, nastier, or said shittier, biting, or more cutting things to anyone else than her. If I've admitted to being cruel, it's because of how I've treated her. She was my first fist fight and my first death threat. She's my sister. And I am not going to see her for two maybe three years. And I am completely at a loss.